Growing up Audhild

Continuing my journey to self-discovery. I have the second question: Where do I like to work? What work will I be doing?

This question is a hard question. I feel like I haven’t quite found that thing that I can do. I know what I want to do. I know that thing I have to do. Getting to that dream I have a very long road. At this time in my life, I am at a fork in the road.

It started with my husband. I have always expressed an interest in going to college. My husband is my biggest cheerleader who always encourages me to do the things I love. He also encourages me to follow my dreams and go to college. Even though I have a few roadblocks.

 One; my children still heavily rely on me. They are getting to ages where they need me less. Nonetheless, because they are all extra spicy, my kids need me more than other kids their age. Two; I am the default parent. My kid’s dad participates in parenting when he has to. He only takes the kids two nights a week. Three; with the economy being in the awful state it is in; I need to work. That leaves me little time with my kids, school, homework and work.

If someday I do get to return to school, I’m still not sure what I will do. Microbiology is what I was in college for. I loved finding out about microorganisms. I also love psychology, the way the brain works is fascinating to me. With microbiology I want to work in a lab. With psychology I could take it anywhere. I am considering still getting a degree working in a lab with a minor in psychology. The first time I looked into a microscope I was on cloud nine for the next few days. I have never had that feeling in anything I have done. I must get behind a microscope again.

I know where I want to be, I know what I must do. But getting to my dream is a very long road. The biggest struggle is overcoming the hurdles of balancing time every day. It’s also challenging to manage money and take care of my family. Like I said it is a hard question. Even though I know it will be worth it in the end.