What would I say to my teenage self? There are so many things I would say. First, I would tell her to slow down and to focus on school. College is an option. Broken hearts heal. Use your brain. Most importantly, she is loved.
First things first. You are so smart in more ways then you know. I know life is so hard and you didn’t get the childhood you deserved. You still need to slow down and enjoy being a teenager. I know you think you know everything but you don’t. You will miss the time you had. Instead of deciding to take care of everyone else. I know these years are going to be hard but you must remember to love yourself. Take the SAT you will want to go to college someday. That boy that says he loves you does not know how to love. Be brave enough to walk away.
Speaking of boys, that hurt you. He is not the only person to break your heart. Like I said this time is full of pain. You learn so much about what love looks like. The downside is it doesn’t seem to stick. He is the ticket out but that wasn’t really love. You will also find who really does love you and who doesn’t. You will be ok I promise.
Think farther then what you feel, not everything is what it seems. You are so smart, I wish I was there to tell you everyday. You are wiser than you know and better than the people who leave your life. You will reach your destination faster if you use your brain. It is more logical than following your heart.
Finally, you are so loved. by your best friends, Your aunt and uncle, Mom and most importantly…Me. It will be hard to believe that most days. You must remember that You are loved!
There are many things I would change if I had a chance to change it. Even if it was talking to my teenage self. If I had that opportunity this is what I would tell her. I hope that she would listen and make the changes I wasn’t brave enough to make.
Growing up Audhild 
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